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    第四十一                                                                                                             聊，为什么不聊？”                                                                                                             李澈坚定如斯，一如磐石般不转移。                                                                                                             我低头沉默，这个男人就是这点不好，犟的慌！一旦犟上去的时候，十头牛都拉不回来。                                                                                                             我并不算是很了解李澈，就像是今天下午靳骐说的那样，我从来都不曾了解过任何人，他，甚至李澈我从来不曾深入了解过。                                                                                                             或者，我从未了解过他们。                                                                                                             “那你想聊什么？”                                                                                                             我有种想要扶额的无力感。                                                                                                             “……”                                                                                                             李澈突然之间又坑不出声来了。                                                                                                             一会之后，他朝我招手，说话的声调也b刚刚的时候温柔的多了，好像火气已经散去了。                                                                                                             “凌墨你过来。”                                                                                                             这一下子从地狱上升到天堂，我还真的有点不大习惯，人不自觉地往着角落里面靠了靠，这个条件反sx的动作让李澈的脸se僵y上了几分。                                                                                                             “凌墨，你过来。”                                                                                                             李澈脸上挂着笑，也不知道是不是他想要努力做出和蔼可亲的笑容来，但是这种姿态一向不是他所擅长的，所以他这表情在我看来越发显得狰狞，在这种情况下我当然不会想要坐过去靠近是他一类的，我得为自己的生命安全保驾护航。                                                                                                             终于李澈放弃了他的“和蔼可亲”，也不等我摇头表示抗议了，他自己先挪动了尊驾，屈居在我所坐的单人沙发上。                                                                                                             原本这单人沙发一个人坐着的时候还觉得挺舒坦的，可李澈一坐上来之后，就觉得有点拥挤了，一拥挤之后，彼此之间的接触也就更加多了点。                                                                                                             再加上现在天气不算特别凉，身上衣服穿的不厚，很容易感受到彼此身上所散发出来的热气和温度，那种温暖，有点灼人。                                                                                                             李澈挤在我身边，大概他也发现了两个人坐在这么点位子实在太纠结了点，但是这对他g本就构不成什么影响，手臂一提，我就已经从窝在沙发上的模式演变成为坐到了他的大腿上。                                                                                                             这地理位置的转变实在太过突然，也幸亏是在家里面，要是在公交车上出现这种位子，指不定还会上十九楼上转悠一圈成为别人诟病的话柄呢！                                                                                                             人r靠垫其实并不算是特别的舒服，真的，还远不如之前一个人窝在沙发上来的舒服，我总觉得咯得慌，所以这种亲密的动作也不是我所擅长的，尤其是在对方的手扣着你的腰眼，只要一个用力就能勒si你。                                                                                                             “别动！”李澈轻掐了我腰上的r一把，示意我就安分地坐在他的腿上别乱动，“你的t重逐年上涨着呢！”                                                                                                             “行了吧，你就吹呗，你也没抱过我，哪知道我年年t重上涨来着！”                                                                                                             我嗤之以鼻，他这话说的也是在太不靠谱了点，太吹了，一听就知道是湖绿。                                                                                                             “不用抱，用目测就知道。”李澈捏着我的手，“几年前手指看上去还像是挺修长的，现在都已经r嘟嘟了的了，剁了剁了都能当猪蹄煮一锅了。”                                                                                                             不得不承认，相b较而言我的生活还算是安逸，安逸到现在，到处都是r，一掐一把，唯一能够让我感到欣慰的就剩下x围没有再涨上去这一点了吧。                                                                                                             听他现在这说话的口气像是火气已经下去了，果然这家伙是很y晴不定的，这火气来的快去的也快，不过也好，省得在还和我纠缠不清，吵架一类事情不是我所擅长的。                                                                                                             李澈整张脸贴在我的后背上，温热的呼x1让我觉得整个背部有点痒，特别的不适应。                                                                                                             “你收拾了行李箱，是打算跑哪里去？”                                                                                                             李澈闷声问着。                                                                                                             今晚上的反复无常，终于在这一刻得到了解答，原因就是出在这。                                                                                                             我叹气。                                                                                                             “回家呗，反正我还能跑哪里去。”                                                                                                             “好端端的，g嘛要回家？”                                                                                                             李澈的声音里头带了一点困惑，揽着我腰身的手微微收紧了些，这个动作对于还没有把晚餐消化的我来说压力很大，我拍了拍李澈的手臂，示意他如果不想勒si我的话，可以把爪子再收紧一点没关系，顶多明天同时上报纸而已。                                                                                                             李澈很明白我所要表达的意思，他的手微微松开了一些。                                                                                                             “有点事情。”我含糊其词，虽然不是什么大事，但是我却不想对李澈说。                                                                                                             “要我送你回去么？”                                                                                                             “不用吧，反正也近，你也没有那么有空不是！”                                                                                                             “……”李澈又沉默了一下，再响起的时候声音带了点冷然和还有无奈。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你的心真冷……”                                                                                                             李澈略微带了点指责的话像是一个武器，不利但是依旧刺的人有些闷疼。                                                                                                             “李澈，我问你，”我深x1了一口气，“在你心底是不是觉得我特么一个理想主义分子？”                                                                                                             “恩？”                                                                                                             李澈玩着我的手指，似乎在感受着我的手指到底是有多r感一样，间或十指相扣，间或他用大拇指和食指按压着我的手背，按着我的指关节。                                                                                                             “你先说说，你到底有多理想化吧！”李澈声音里面带了一点笑。                                                                                                             “你指哪个方面？”                                                                                                             我不耻下问，我对很多事情都带了点理想化，一下子要我说出来不给一个具t的方向，实在太过于笼统了，还是得指明一个方向。                                                                                                             “男人。”                                                                                                             “……”                                                                                                             这下子沉默的人变成了我，唔，一个nv人和一个男人讨论关于“男人”的话题，的确有点……                                                                                                             “其实也没有怎么样吧，我没有指望着一定要在宝马车上哭泣也不要在自行车上潇洒，条件也不需要多好，有房有车最好，要真没有咱也不指望。按照我这种年纪，对方没有结过婚的最好，要是结过婚的最好没有小孩，要是有了小孩就别让我生小孩。能一起过到老就一起过着，要是不能一起过了，好聚好散……”                                                                                                             我顺口说着，这话说到后来腰上那赘r被李澈的爪子捏了一把之后底气明显不足。                                                                                                             “瞧你这条件低的……”李澈哼唧了两声，“只差没在脸上贴着‘来者不拒’几个字了。”                                                                                                             “年龄摆在那呢……”                                                                                                             我嘿嘿嘿地笑了几声，27的年纪摆在哪里，这本命年一过，从之前一年一次的问候到现在问候的b较勤快的，要是等到三十又不是事业有成的nv强人，估计就得乏人问津了。                                                                                                             “可不是，年纪摆在呢！”李澈声里头带了笑，“话说这nv人越靠近三十，越没身价。凌墨你再过这么一两年，你估计就不是‘来者不拒’而是‘清仓甩卖’了。”                                                                                                             “……”                                                                                                             我表示无话可说，这男人说辞实在太过犀利哥，我实在招架不住。                                                                                                             “你都知道自己年纪不小了，你还跟我矫情什么？”                                                                                                             李澈微微动作了一下，让我侧对着他刚好能够看到他的脸他的表情。                                                                                                             “这个年纪的nv人只剩下矫情了，你不知道么？总不能摆出一种像是饿了个把月见到喜洋洋的灰太狼那种如饥似渴的感觉吧！”                                                                                                             矫情啊，我也觉得特别矫情，都这把年纪了，一般x有人肯要，而且还是这么一种优质gu肯要，我居然还矫情地不要。                                                                                                             “给你点颜se你就得瑟了是吧？”李澈伸手捏着我的爪子，扣得紧紧的，“要是到了三十，我就不等你了。”                                                                                                             唔……                                                                                                             意思是，他还会再等我三年么？！                                                                                                             我突然很想问这么一句，但是的话到嘴边却又变成了，“怎么，到时候随便找个人解决终身了？”                                                                                                             我突然觉得有点心跳加快的感觉，很砰然。                                                                                                             好吧，我承认，这个闷sao的男人有时候还是挺有萌点的，没办法，这年头只要是个人身上都多少会有那么一两点的萌点，即便他是个渣男。                                                                                                             “你希望如此？”                                                                                                             李澈反问，语调森冷。                                                                                                             我起身。                                                                                                             “对了，今天靳骐来过了。”我突然想起，语气平淡地对着李澈说，现在的我在说起靳骐的时候已经能够平静许多了，不会觉得x口很闷，也不会觉得心情激动。                                                                                                             “哦。”                                                                                                             李澈应了一声，语气也很平淡。                                                                                                             这反应？！                                                                                                             “你不问问他对我说了点什么？”                                                                                                             我趴在沙发背上，看向李澈。                                                                                                             “你想说的时候自然会说的，”李澈摊手，云淡风轻，“就像是之前那样，只要你不想说不管我说什么都是于事无补的，那我又何必多此一举。”                                                                                                             唔，还真的是够了解我的，他就算是问了，或许我也不一定会回答。                                                                                                             李澈关电脑，关机的时候xp系统发出一声清响，同时响起的还有李澈的一句话。                                                                                                             “凌墨，我不会在一个地方等你太久，就算是迷g，也早晚会有一天找到正确的路走到出口的时候。nv人和男人不同，是有生理时钟的，你差不多该是从你给自己设定的迷g了里面走出来了，只要你愿意。”                                                                                                             没有人是谁的迷g，只在于你本身愿不愿意寻找到那一条正确的路然后走出来。                                                                                                             李澈伸手m了m我的头发，动作一如往常一样的轻柔。                                                                                                             第四十二章                                                                                                             我知道这个男人是在b我做出一个选择，没有人会一直在原地等待着谁，站的久了之后总是要挪一下窝的。                                                                                                             李澈想说的大概就是这样。                                                                                                             昨晚的睡眠质量不是很好，像是睡着了，却又像是没有睡着，醒来的时候感觉眼睛很g涩，特别的不舒服。                                                                                                             这种早起还真的不是我的专利，尤其在李澈都还没有起床上班的时候我居然就已经醒了。                                                                                                             看了一眼摆放在床头柜上的闹钟，时间尚早不过七点的光景，但是外头的天已经大亮，隐约已经见到yan光的光线，再过半小时左右大概就会yan光灿烂，直s这没拉好窗帘的屋里面了。                                                                                                             李澈侧着身子睡的很熟，看着他的睡颜我不得不承认，他长得也挺好看的，只是当年他和靳骐一起出现的时候，他的外形被更加出se的靳骐给压了下去，就像是一朵红玫瑰的旁边开了一朵小小的雏菊，只有有心才会注意得到。                                                                                                             他的皮肤白皙，从放在卫生间里流理台上的男士专用护理的东西来看，这个男人对于他那一张脸还是挺珍惜的。                                                                                                             李澈睡的很沉稳，呼x1绵长，一条手臂还被我当做枕头来使用。                                                                                                             早上从一个男人的怀抱里面醒来，欣赏着这个男人的睡颜，然后等着天大亮，看着他起床然后上班。                                                                                                             很居家过日子的生活，这种生活，伸手像是就能触m得到，但是能牢牢掌握在手里面么？                                                                                                             这样的生活……                                                                                                             我闭上眼，一晚上没睡好，眼睛酸涩不已，闭着养神，要是能睡着就更好。                                                                                                             赖了一会还是没有半点的睡意，原本还想着要不要起床算了，但是还没等我这条大船从床上拔出来，床头柜上的闹钟倒是先响了。                                                                                                             闹钟没有吵闹多久，只不过响了两声之后，他就已经微微动了动，伸手按掉了闹钟。                                                                                                             我已经假寐着，我一向b李澈晚起，这样b他先醒过来是第一次，刚刚他没醒我还没觉得那么难以面对，可是两个人清醒地面对面从一张床上醒来。                                                                                                             算了吧，这种事情我暂时还适应不了。                                                                                                             李澈慢慢悠悠地爬起了床，从那悉悉索索的声音里面我完全可以猜到他现在的动作一定是睡眼惺忪地抓着头发把头发r0u的像是一团**窝一样的乱。                                                                                                             李澈轻手轻脚地下了床。                                                                                                             我偷偷地眯出一条缝，无声地打量着李澈                                                                                                             他套上衬衫，扣上纽扣，然后套上西装k出了房间门，去了卫生间里头洗漱。                                                                                                             我在床上翻了一个身，虽然已经醒了，但是就是不想起床，而且现在这种情况下起床的话，他肯定是会知道我刚刚是在假寐。                                                                                                             多煎熬啊，ga0的和地道战似的。                                                                                                             外头有着声响传来，不知道李澈在那边ga0什么鬼，叮叮咚咚的不知道在ga0些什么。                                                                                                             一直折腾到了八点多之后，房间里头又响起了脚步声。                                                                                                             “装睡的差不多了吧，早餐我就摆放在餐桌上，起来吃了吧。”                                                                                                             唔？！                                                                                                             他早就知道我在装睡了？                                                                                                             我睁开眼看向李澈，他早就已经穿戴整齐，恩，很衣冠！                                                                                                             “你早就知道了？”                                                                                                             “我看到你睫毛在抖了，很明显是在装睡。”李澈脸上带了点笑意，“小时候谁没装睡过。”                                                                                                             果然，大家小时候都玩过这一手，真睡和假睡是在很明显，但是这一目了然我觉得我一点成就感都没有。                                                                                                             “我等会回家，你自己在外面吃了晚饭再回来吧，这下可没人手被你指使着去做晚饭了啊。”                                                                                                             我爬起来，抓了抓自己的头发，发现自打头发整成了卷发之后这打结的程度还真的是一次b一次高，梳理的时候也b往常要费劲。                                                                                                             “恩。”                                                                                                             李澈点了点头，从床头柜上拿了车钥匙。                                                                                                             “你自己注意一点吧！”他伸手拍了拍我的脸，然后出门了。