26-30

 我不知道要怎么开口，是该开口让他滚蛋呢还是其他的。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”靳骐悠悠地开口。                                                                                                             “借完厕所了要是没事就回去吧，我明天还要上班，而且，孤男寡nv的，容易留人诟病。”我摆摆手，摆出当他纯粹只是来借厕所的那样。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我……”靳骐踟蹰着，yu言又止之中又带着点小心翼翼的姿态，这个样子的靳骐还真的是我从来都没有遇见过的。                                                                                                             我不知道在我没有遇上靳骐之前他有没有出现过这种姿态，也不知道在我之后他有没有做出过这种姿态来，可在和我当年那一段情的时候，他可绝对没有摆出过这种姿态来的。                                                                                                             那个时候的他，腹黑地掌控着主导权，在他的手上我讨不到一点好处。人家总说先告白的人处于一种不利的地位，这一点在我身上t现无疑，曾几何时，咱也成了一个ai情教材，可惜就是反面的。                                                                                                             “还有什么想说的么？”                                                                                                             我抬头看着靳骐，这样吞吞吐吐的一点也不像他的个x，他不是一向都喜欢有话就说的么，怎么现在像是被猫咬掉了舌头一样，犹豫无b。                                                                                                             “怎么不像你当年离开我的时候一样g净利索地说给我听？”我问。                                                                                                             其实他们说的都没有错，我还是很在意的。                                                                                                             我看着他，呼x1有点快，全身有点不可抑制的颤抖。这么多年，这个靳骐就像梗在我喉间的刺一样，让人彻夜难眠。                                                                                                             我终于还是问出了口，唯一让自己感到欣慰的，大t上还算是平静，没有双手叉腰茶壶状地谩骂，也没有化身咆哮教主在那边大声咆哮，这也算是我能够做到的最大极限吧。                                                                                                             也亏的靳骐这么多年之后才出现，要是早些年，赶上姐冲动而又伪愤青的时候，指不定就喷si他或者直接c起一块板砖往他头上招呼而去了。                                                                                                             算他时间挑的好啊！                                                                                                             靳骐的表情在听到我突然这么问的时候，还是有点震惊的，但是更多的是理所当然。                                                                                                             “我还以为你永远都不会问出口了，阿墨……”靳骐声音里面透着一点苦涩，“其实那个时候在我遇见你之前，我已经办好了签证。”                                                                                                             靳骐站在我的面前背对着光线，在不算很明亮的节能下，我看不清楚他现在的表情，只能听到他的声音。                                                                                                             他的声音有点含糊，但是还不至于不可闻的地步，我静静地听着，或许他是编的，或许他用了文艺x的修辞手法对整个故事进行了润se。                                                                                                             在很多时候没有亲身经历过的时候，也许我们会怒不可遏，会火冒三丈，会你所想象的种种，当事实真正地剖开在你面前的时，反倒觉得有些淡定了，其实也就不过是那么一回事而已。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我从来都没有想到会遇上你……”                                                                                                             靳骐长叹了一口气，语调轻柔。                                                                                                             “后悔了么？”我问，很自然而然的。                                                                                                             “那么你呢，你后悔了么？”                                                                                                             靳骐问我。                                                                                                             后悔么？                                                                                                             我想还是有过的吧，自然可能是有后悔过的吧，被人甩的那么的难堪，不，连分手也是我最后一次才知道的，所有的一切像是笑话一场一样，怎么可能没有后悔过的。                                                                                                             只是这个问题突然觉得也并不是那么重要而已。                                                                                                             相顾无言，这词还挺真实的，我和靳骐之间还真的没有很多年前那样有很多话要说的感觉了。                                                                                                             “算了，挺晚的了。我去睡了，你自己回去路上注意一点吧。”我起身，反正答案他都已经给了，“走的时候记得帮我把门带上。”                                                                                                             nv人啊，和男人的前途一b，只有靠边站的份，什么都是要淡定的。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”                                                                                                             靳骐从身后抱住，他的下巴搁在我的肩膀上，硌的我有点疼，他的呼x1有点灼热，喷在我的脖颈上，susu麻麻。                                                                                                             “我们重新开始好不好？”                                                                                                             重新开始，然后再给你一次不告而别的机会么？我想。                                                                                                             “我们重新开始吧！”                                                                                                             靳骐重复了一声，手上的力度多加上了几分，我觉得如果我没有给他一个肯定的答复的话，也许他会直接这么抠si我算了。                                                                                                             我用力地掰开他的手，转身直视他的眼睛，像是要把他此时此刻的样子尽入眼底一样。                                                                                                             “你不觉得，这句话说的太晚了一点么？”                                                                                                             我问。                                                                                                             那么多年过去了，如果他早些年回来，对我说这句话的时候，姐也许头脑一热，眼一发黑，也就这么从了也不一定。                                                                                                             可惜，他晚了，我也足够清醒了，谁都回不去以前了。                                                                                                             门口传来的按门铃的声音。                                                                                                             我想应该是李澈来了，才十分钟左右的时间，他居然就赶到了，估计是飞车来的吧。                                                                                                             我去开了门，李澈果然站在门外，额头上有薄汗，他看了我和靳骐一眼。                                                                                                             “您一路飙过来的吧！”我损他。                                                                                                             “没，”李澈摇头，“也就不过七十码而已。”                                                                                                             正文 第三十章                                                                                                             七十码个妹呀，七十码能够在那么短的时间到我这里么，这种劣质的谎言说出来谁能够相信，你以为自己是舒马赫么！                                                                                                             我不反驳，只是侧过了身，让李澈进门。                                                                                                             李澈走进了屋来。                                                                                                             “阿骐，我送你回去。”李澈开口，伸手去拉靳骐。                                                                                                             李澈拉了拉靳骐的胳膊，靳骐不为所动，好像一点都没有觉察到李澈的动作，那两个人站在一起的感觉，该si的让人觉得这两兄弟好像有点什么一样，怎么瞧都像是小受和小攻在闹别扭。                                                                                                             “阿骐，你还想怎么样？”                                                                                                             李澈见靳骐这个样子，他也恼怒了，他冷着声看着靳骐，然后用力地把他往着我的方向用力一推。                                                                                                             “这个nv人因为你的不告而别，你知道她怎么样，以为自己是电视小说的悲惨nv主，ga0什么淋雨，蹲在麦当劳哪里痛哭，整整六七年，她都等着你的回来，不敢和别的男人交往。你还想要她怎么样，就因为你回来，然后当做什么事情都没有，重新和你在一起？”                                                                                                             我从来都没有见到过那样的李澈，横眉冷目对自家兄弟，言辞又很犀利哥，真爷们！                                                                                                             可是这爷们为毛要把我的囧事记得那么清楚，都已经那么多年过去了，还要往事重提，这种情况下，又面对当事人，这种感觉真的是……                                                                                                             我扯了扯李澈的衣袖。                                                                                                             “我哪里不敢和别的男人交往了？”                                                                                                             我抗议，明明这几年之中姐情感虽然没有特别丰功伟业，但是也没有怎么空窗吧，姐还是有交往过人的，不要用自己的主观意识来形容我这几年，顺带地把所有的过往都抹杀了，那群男人虽然是酱油男，但是至少还是存在过的。                                                                                                             “闭嘴！”                                                                                                             李澈瞪了我一眼，十足的恼羞成怒样。                                                                                                             靳骐动了动，转身看着李澈。                                                                                                             “你就那么希望我远离她，是么？”靳骐问，声音也森冷了下来，“表哥！”                                                                                                             他重重地咬着“表哥”两个字。                                                                                                             姐突然觉得鸭梨很大，因为姐让两兄弟反目了。                                                                                                             李澈用沉默以对，这种无声的沉默让姐觉得鸭梨更加大了，这三方对峙神马的，又不是拍三国演义来个三分天下。                                                                                                             “那个，我先去睡了。你们两个随意，走的时候给我带上门！”                                                                                                             我抓了抓头发，打算不争气地率先逃逸，直接闪身进了自己的房间，利索地上锁。如此剑拔弩张的情节，实在不适合吾等小白出场，一个不利索就会瞬间被秒。                                                                                                             我不知道这两个人是什么时候离开的，等到我听不到外面有半点声响了之后，我才把房门给开了一条缝。                                                                                                             客厅里头静悄悄的，不知道谁b较细心，连灯也顺带地关上了，一室的黑暗，突然之间有点寂寞来袭的味道。                                                                                                             我回房趴在床上，以前的时候我一度认为这个动作能够让我的发育过甚的x给压下去一点，有一段时间我天天用这个姿势，直到有一天有人提出这样压下去会不会压成荷包蛋的形状的时候，我才停止了这种无意义的动作。                                                                                                             这么趴着的时候总有一种x闷气虚的感觉，果然是一个寂寞的夜晚。                                                                                                             大约半小时之后，李澈打了电话过来。                                                                                                             “睡了？”李澈低声问着。                                                                                                             “睡了。”                                                                                                             我回答，心里面却忍不住吐槽，明知道都已经这么晚了还要打电话过来，这不是扰人清梦么。                                                                                                             “那就好好睡吧，我挂电话了……”                                                                                                             “别……”我阻止李澈。                                                                                                             “有问题要问？”李澈像是我肚子里面的蛔虫一样，对我的一举一动似乎都了如指掌一样。                                                                                                             我还真的是有问题要问的，可是在听到他这么说的时候反倒觉得没有什么可说了的。                                                                                                             “睡不着，陪我聊一会吧。”                                                                                                             我说，在这么寂静的夜晚，城市的夜晚除了车鸣都没有剩下什么，就连夏天也听不到蝉鸣，都市化的让人觉得寂寞。                                                                                                             “我还真不知道我的声音还有催眠的功效。”                                                                                                             李澈的声音总是那么略带不屑味道，如果在他现在在我面前的话，我想我一定会瞧见配合这声音的表情一定是鄙视至极的，这也是电话的好处，看不到那张脸也少一分烦躁。                                                                                                             虽然李澈是这么说的，但是他还是没有把电话给挂断，就像以前很多个夜晚一样，我不说话，他也不说话，就这样等着时间慢慢而过。                                                                                                             “你今天g嘛那么说，好像把我说的有多痴情一样，明明就不是这样的。”我指责李澈，他还对我吼“闭嘴”，我说的也是实情。                                                                                                             “怎么的，难道还要我编你这几年多姿多彩的生活，裙下之臣无数，风光无限？”李澈说，“如果你觉得这么说有意义的话，那等改天我就对阿骐这么说好了。”                                                                                                             为毛这个男人总是喜欢曲解自己的话，然后借机踩我两脚抬高自己也好，这到底对他有神马好处啊有神马好处？                                                                                                             我远目，很想对这个男人说一长串家乡骂人的土话，保证他绝对会听不懂。                                                                                                             这种模式每次都不少见，我也觉得自己挺贱的，明知道这个男人的嘴巴不饶人，但是每次还总会打电话给他，找骂。                                                                                                             对于这一点，姐有觉悟，贱骨头作祟不解释。                                                                                                             “你心愿了解了没有？”李澈问我。                                                                                                             “什么心愿？”我问，扯了扯身上的被子伸手关了灯。                                                                                                             “阿骐都在你那呆了不少的时间了，估计你要问的也问了吧，b如说当年为什么要一声不吭地抛弃你一类的。”李澈对我的装蒜嗤之以鼻。                                                                                                             有时候，我都要怀疑李澈哥是不是在我家装了监听器材了，怎么就能够那么了解呢。                                                                                                             “你早就知道靳骐会来找我的吧，老实交代，我的地址是不是你提供过的？”我问，这一点我早就觉得有点怀疑了，你想一个刚从国外回来不久的人怎么可能知道一切，绝对是有人通风报信。                                                                                                             “你以为就我知道你住处呢？你是草履虫来着吧？”                                                                                                             ……                                                                                                             这一次我已经从脑容量少的可怜转变成了单细胞生物呢？品阶又再度下降了不少啊。                                                                                                             的确，知道我住处的人不少，像是依依，像是文雅，像是林淼淼……                                                                                                             但是这些nvx一般x都是和我一个鼻子通气的，一般x有啥危险x的事情也基本上都给我先排除了，而知道我住处的男x，除了李澈，还有就是给我找了这个住处的杨逸学长了。                                                                                                             男人有时候也是不靠谱生物啊！                                                                                                             “如果你和阿骐的事情解决掉了的话，你是不是该想想其他的事情了？”李澈见我许久不搭话，开口问道。                                                                                                             “什么？”                                                                                                             “r偿。”                                                                                                             我再度果断地掐断电话，扯过被子给自己盖上，睡觉睡觉，只有睡觉最安全。